Already as a child, I was taken with the idea of being an instrument of God. There was nothing in the world I wanted more than to let him work through me. I prayed for this incessantly. I tried hard to be a good person, being honest and kind, helping whereever my help was needed or wanted. Most of all I tried very hard to find the right job for me. In this job, I imagined I would make a contribution to mankind by using my godgiven talents. I tried so many things but nothing worked. At a certain point, I just didn’t know what to do any more. I had almost given up.
Only recently, I figured out where I went wrong all these years. Growing up, I had made up all kinds of ideas on what it means to live a life of service, what is useful and meaningful, how to make a contribution, and which talents are needed. I wanted nothing more than to be an instrument of God, I prayed incessantly, but I never heard his answers, because I had not learned to listen to his voice. All these years, I had listened to my mind instead of with my heart.
Listening with my heart, hearing the whispers, I’ve learned that all I need to do to make this Universe a better place, is to be me. Fully and completely me. I’m learning to do what my heart urges me to do. I feel like I have arrived, as there is nowhere I ‘d rather be, nothing I ‘d rather do, no one I’d rather be than who, what and where I am today. I trust that when I do what my heart tells me to do, the Universe is unfolding through me.