Great expectations

With spiritual practice, my life has got quieter and quieter over the last years. Quiet to the point, where life seemed to stand still. I lived from day to day, from moment to moment with no expectations for the future. This was a welcome change to expecting only the worse for myself, not being able to believe on a very deep level great things could ever happen to me. I loved my quiet life, but at the same time felt some resistance, knowing something was missing.

Last week, while listening to Ask And It Is Given by Esther and Jerry Hicks, I felt a tingling sensation in my spine, getting stronger with every passing second. It was not an unfamiliar feeling as I recognized it from a long gone past. All of a sudden, I was about 5 years old again, feeling exited about something that was about to happen. I had not felt this exited in a long time. Always expecting the worse, there was nothing to be exited about. And living from moment to moment, renouncing the future, being exited about a future event did not seem to fit the scope. 

Feeling that tingling sensation, feeling more alive than I had in a very long time, I understood that this was what had been missing from my life. In that moment, I grasped the concept of expecting without expectations. Being here in this moment, creating in my mind a strong image of something wonderful, believing this is possible for me, feeling the exitement of what is about to happen and allowing it to unfold at its own pace, not resisting the flow of Go(o)d to me. Being careful what I wish for, as I’m starting to manifest at light speed.