Some years ago, I learned that the world as we experience it is colored by our perceptions. Since, I’ve been questioning my world. I questioned my roles in relationships, my beliefs during discussions and I tried to question myself. The latter constantly seemed to elude me. Everytime, I thought I was on to something, it dissipated before my eyes. I came to the conclusion that the mind is conning, it keeps playing tricks on me. Time to do things slightly differently.
On Monday, during lunch, while eating my sandwiches, I knew it was time to let go of me in order to find ME. Like you would empty a glass of water for a refill, I emptied myself of all conceptions I have of myself, so I can be filled again by what the heart knows true.
Until I let go of God, some eight years ago, my life was an ongoing conversation with God. As I let go, I lost my ability to pray. I felt surrounded by divine energy, but did not know how to communicate with it. So I lived by the word of Meister Eckhart. If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is thank you, it will be enough.
On Tuesday, reading Gary Zukav’s Seat of the Soul again, I came across the words Allow yourself to pray. These four words sang in my heart. And as I felt the deep longing to share my life, instantly came the words I wanted to say. Communication restored. I was home, home at last. Connected again.
I truly believe we’re one with the Universe or God, as I still call it. If God were the ocean, we’re all a cup of God. I revel in the opportunity I have today to let my glass be filled with God. I surrender my me to let the Universe’s will be done. To be all I can be, to be ME.